joy tang's version of being depressed

when i dance salsa, i can no longer hear the beat. it just went away. thus, when i dance, i can feel myself rushing, but i can't for the life of me actually hear when to put my foot down and when to pick it up, and therefore, i can't fix it. 123-AND-567. there's this pause on AND; i can't feel the AND. so my dancing has no texture. there's no breath, like someone speaking in monotone.
i know, i know. woe is me (or woe is i...whatever.) but it's breaking my heart.