I was having a bad day, and I needed a cookie.

So I go into Empire Cafe for a cookie.
"Just one chocolate chip cookie, please," I say.
The tall, bearded youth at the counter plucks a cookie from underneath a glass dome and slides it onto a ceramic plate while I rummage in my purse for change. "81 cents, please."
There is no change.
"I'm sorry. I must have left all my change in the car," and I am about to say, "Will you take card?" But before I get that far, he puts up his hand.
"Take it," he says, "Enjoy." I stare at him blankly, and he stares back with a look so penetrating that something meaningful must have been happening.
I'm not sure what it was, but I'm certain it was meaningful.
I thanked him and walked out, feeling like a character in some warped version of Pay it Foward, because I honestly felt that I owed someone out there a cookie.
Not a bad feeling, and a pretty good cookie.

my priorities

i'm afraid of applying tp graduate school, because I'm afraid i get in (despite the fact that the likelihood of this is low, very low), then i won't get to sleep anymore. and see, i've spent the majority of my life not-sleeping and now my desire for sleep is even greater than my need for more education.
so sad, so sad.
i'm not as erudite as i like to think.

Chris's comment on the need for corporate branding

Chris Nguyen sums up the need for corporate branding very succintly. As overhead from a dinner conversation, "It's so important. I really believe the businesses need this. (Without branding) the world is a fairly ugly place. It's like, "If it were a guy, I would not f* it.'" (raucous male laughter)
I admit, I laughed too.
He apparently feels strongly about the need for the world to be aesthetically pleasing at every level. Ah, Chris.
However, on many levels, I relate. I'm not one of the people who has ever purchased a product based on packaging, labeling, logos, or any other advertising gimmick. But, I do obsess about the color of my couch. I throw away other people's beer caps as soon as they touch the kitchen table. I shift candles a fractions of an inch to the left or the right. In my mind, it restores a sense of world balance. I have erased a board and re-written a message no less than 10 times, because the words slanted downwards, you see ... Friends, forgive me. I feel strongly about the need for the world to be aesthetically pleasing at every level. I want them to think, "If that were a girl..."

so, it's been one week of summer

so guys. there are lots and lots of drugs out there. lots and lots and lots. and they don't have to be illegal to be drugs. they don't have to be prescription to be any good. nono. an old-fashioned overdose on whatever substance will do.
i am addicted to two.
food and sleep.
yes, i can't be bothered with anything else right now; i'm such a junkie. i mean, c'mon kids. everyone's doing it.